We all have our own stories but this is my journey to motherhood.
I honestly didn’t know if I wanted to be a mother. I thought about it for years but never had the answer. It wasn’t till I met my husband I was sure I wanted to be a mom. There is something about meeting the right person that makes it all so clear. But soon after my husband and we started dating he told me something that devastated me.
My husband was previously married and had two wonderful daughters. At some point during his first marriage, he thought he was done having children and had a vasectomy.
When he told me, I honestly felt a dark cloud come over me. Here he finally was, the man of my dreams, but he was telling me he couldn’t give me children at the time. We talked a lot about what we would do and he agreed he would get a reversal. My husband said, he was never really done having children and always saw himself having more. I am thankful that he did something that we COULD undo but there was always a chance that it wouldn’t work which was terrifying.
I shared this story with a friend of mine and he knew a specialist that could help us! We were introduced to Dr. Marks and his team at International Center for Vasectomy Reversal and weeks later my then fiancé was getting surgery. Just before our year anniversary of getting the procedure done, I took a positive pregnancy test. When my husband came home that day I told him the good news as tears were streaming down both of our faces. What once seemed impossible was no longer.
We were pregnant with our first baby boy. I gave birth in August of 2018 and it’s been pure bliss ever since. (Minus the nights I’m not sleeping but I’ll take it.)
I think about the time in my life when I wasn’t sure I wanted to be a mother and I don’t understand that person anymore. This little baby has brought so much meaning and fulfillment to my life. My journey to motherhood was what was meant to be.
We always knew we weren’t going to stop at one but didn’t know when to try again. But a few months ago, I felt a little off and wanted to take a pregnancy test just for peace of mind. Within a few second of taking that test, there it was. Another POSITIVE pregnancy test!! We’ve been blessed two times over! Baby #2 to make his or her arrival on October 26th, 2019.
I’m going to be honest with you about something, I’m terrified of having two children 14 months apart but when I think about what we went through to get here, it just feels right. Looking at our growing family makes me so thankful that we met Dr. Marks and took a leap of faith. I can’t imagine what could have been and I’m so grateful for what is.
