Ever since I could remember, I have always wanted to be a mother. Even while in college, I, of course, had career aspirations, but if someone asked what I wanted to be “when I grew up” I would always say a “mom”. My mother stayed at home while I grew up and I really loved that experience and wanted nothing more than the ability to give that to my children.
I struggled a bit to find my way after college, I majored in Business Communications and wanted nothing more than to do social media or be a part of the communication team. But when I graduated college there weren’t any jobs for this and if there was, they were highly competitive or already required many years of experience. So as I went from company to company, I always sought to fill my cup with my passion for social media. I started a personal blog about wedding planning and would also volunteer to help with social media for the company I worked for.
When we finally got pregnant the question came, would I be able to be a stay at home mom? The reality of leaving work and not having my income contributing hit us, I contributed to our household income to allow us a comfortable life. My income mattered to my family. I wouldn’t be getting my dream of staying at home just raising babies. I struggled with it my whole pregnancy, thinking I would have to go back to work and the way I wanted to mother my baby had been shattered. During my whole maternity leave, I was anxious about the thought of leaving my baby all day and missing out on such important moments with my daughter. What if I missed her first steps, her first words, her first everything!
I begged my boss and my workplace to allow me to work from home, even if it was a few days a week. I worked as a social media manager, but I believed that my job could easily be done from home. They would not budge on it. It was painful going back to work even though my own mother was watching her for us, it still was so hard. It wasn’t the way I wanted to live the rest of my life, feeling terrible for being away 10 hours or so every day. Feeling like I had to play catch up every day with my her. I decided I didn’t have to live this way anymore and took matters into my own hands.
So I created my own destiny, started my own business, where I could work from home and still be able to make an income for my family. The added bonus also was that I would be doing what I love, social media management, and helping small businesses with their own goals.
Don’t get it twisted, I also worked part-time for a bit at Starbucks to get affordable health insurance for my daughter and I (my husband’s insurance was too expensive for us to be on his). I would work very early in the morning at Starbucks, be home by 9am, and then spend the rest of the day with my daughter and contracting with my clients. I was happy and thought that this was something I could manage for the rest of my life.
Then one day, an old co-worker approached me and told me about a company called Clearcover, they were looking for people to work-from-home full time and asked if I would be interested and I jumped at the opportunity. It wasn’t doing social media, but it still allowed me to be at home and not miss a thing with my daughter.
I wasn’t ready to let go of my business that I just started and I kept getting more clients each month. I was juggling working from home and meeting the demands of my clients and able to be at home with my baby. My mother was still coming over to watch my daughter while I worked at my desk but I loved that I could just take a few steps and see her, hold her, and not miss a single thing. I was working more hours than I had ever had in my life, but it was all worth it to me.
I eventually got promoted and became the social media manager in the Communication department at Clearcover. The exact thing I always hoped to do. When I got promoted I made the hard decision to let go of my clients, I wanted to give my new position 110% of my attention and hard work. And also was really ready to not have to work so many hours every day.
I get to be the mom I want to be to my daughter. I get to provide income for my family. I have started to think of how awesome it is that I am so accomplished that my family relies on me financially to have an amazing life that we do. I get to fill up my cup working at a company that believes in me and that I can share my passion with. For a long time, I didn’t believe women could do it all, have a career and a family. But I am actually living the dream that I didn’t even know I wanted. When I took the leap of leaving my job not quite sure if I would regret the decision, but here I am breaking down even more barriers for what I thought I deserved in my life. What I thought I wanted in life is actually completely different then what I am, a successful working mom, but it turns out I love every minute of it. I put into the world the life I wanted and manifested it myself.