There are so many emotions running wild when you’re pregnant. Most of the time I can keep them in check, but as the weeks tick on by, I can’t help but feel so many mixed emotions about this new babe about to enter our lives. The one thing that keeps popping up at the forefront of my mind is you, my firstborn.
For the last two years it’s been just you and me – you’re my little side kick and my favorite little man. Our days have been filled with countless adventures and our nights have been full of your favorite books, songs and snuggles. My heart aches to know that our moments like that dwindling and that you will soon have to share me. It’s been just the two of us, exploring the world through your eyes. I truly am going to miss our time alone. Those moments spent cuddling on the couch, playing with cars or running around at the park.
I am sad it won’t be just you and I anymore, but I am also overjoyed and excited to see you become the greatest big brother imaginable. I can’t wait for you to share your sweet laughter and kisses with your new baby sister. I am eager to watch you teach her everything you know and help her discover the world at your side. I‘m anticipating days with all of us having dance parties, snuggling up on the bed reading books and sharing treats. I know there are endless precious moments as a family of four in our future.
I want you to know that I love you and cherish every moment we’ve had together over the past two years. I know there will be days when I am spread a little too thin and I can’t give you the attention you crave, but please know that my love for you is unconditional – you will always be my first and no one can ever take that away. You are the one who made me a mom, my firstborn baby. Everything I know about being a mother, I learned with you by my side. We’ve struggled through the tough moments and jumped for joy at the easy ones. I didn’t know how full my heart really could be until that moment I held you in my arms.
Our family is changing but my love for you is one thing that will never, ever change. I am going to spend these final weeks cherishing our last few moments as a duo (or really trio with Daddy involved). Just know that being your mom is the greatest joy of my life. Thank you for making me the best mom I can be.
(photo credit: Shannon Worley Photography)